Light in the Valley of the Shadow of Death (part twenty-one)

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. (Isaiah 43: 2-3a)

As I stood waiting by the dining room window I saw Sam’s car pull into my driveway, the headlights glowing in the dim light of early dawn.  He was right on time, as I knew he would be.  It was 6:50 am on Monday, January 9, 2011 and my friend, Sam, had come to take me to my first round of chemotherapy and radiation treatments at the Cancer Hospital at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill.  The first appointment was scheduled for 10:30 am, but our goal was to arrive well before 9 am, and we were hoping to get a head start on the rush-hour traffic which would inevitably clog the main artery between Raleigh and Chapel Hill.

UNC Medical Center.  The Cancer Hospital is on the right, in front of the water tower.

UNC Medical Center. The Cancer Hospital is on the right, in front of the water tower.

I was told to expect that my morning appointment, which would be the first of seven weekly chemotherapy treatments, could take as long as three hours, which meant that if it began at 10:30, I probably would not be finished much before 1:30 pm.  However, the first of my thirty-three daily radiation treatments was scheduled for 1:45 pm.  This window of fifteen minutes did not give me much time to get from the second floor, where infusions are done, down to the lower level where I would receive my radiation treatment.  It also left no time for lunch, if I was feeling well enough to eat after chemotherapy.

Furthermore, since most cancer patients at UNC undergo chemotherapy treatments on Mondays, and some patients require more time than others, usually by 10:30 am there are numerous delays and patients sometimes have to wait for thirty minutes or more before they can begin their treatment.  Whoever put my schedule together for the day did not allow for such delays.  So, Dr. Hayes, my medical oncologist, suggested I arrive about two hours ahead of time so that my blood work could be processed quickly and my treatment could get underway by 9 am.  He told me to use his name if anyone questioned why I had arrived so early.

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Light in the Valley of the Shadow of Death (part twenty)

The angel Gabriel said to Mary, “For nothing will be impossible with God.” (Luke 1:37)

On Saturday, December 24, 2011, Gil spent the morning decorating our tree and wrapping presents.  He loves all the traditions and festivities that accompany the celebration of Christmas, and since I was still recovering from surgery and unable to lift anything over three pounds or stand on my feet for very long, he took full responsibility for making sure our home was decorated and that presents were bought and wrapped.  However, thanks to our friend, Claire, who set up a care calendar for meals, Gil did not have the added responsibility of preparing dinners.  Friends from area churches and the school where Gil is employed brought meals to our home, three times a week, beginning the day I returned home from the hospital.  This gift of love, offered by more people than I can count, continued through the middle of March 2012.

That evening, after making sure I was bundled up in a warm coat, Gil helped me into our car and we headed to a Christmas Eve service at Holy Trinity Church.  It was solely by the grace of God that I was well and strong enough to go out in public only eighteen days after surgery.  This was yet another answer to prayer because I so dearly wanted to attend a service of worship and celebrate Christmas with many of the Christian friends who had prayed so faithfully for the miracle the Lord had granted.

Gil held my hand as we slowly walked down the long steep flight of stairs which lead into the church.  As we paused half-way down the stairs, I remember looking up and smiling broadly to numerous friends who were already seated in the congregation. They waved to us and held up their hands in praise to the Lord because we all knew that the big smile on my face was God’s gift – a smile my doctors thought would not be possible after the surgery.  That night I was delighted to serve as a kind of “billboard” advertising
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Light in the Valley of the Shadow of Death (part nineteen)

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid… (Deuteronomy 31:8)

About two weeks after my surgery in December 2011, my friend Susan came over to my house for a visit.  Five years earlier Susan had undergone surgery for the removal of a parotid gland tumor and she also had to follow-up with radiation treatments.  When she offered to come over and answer any questions I might have – and help dispel my fears about my upcoming treatments – I readily accepted her offer.

Susan arrived bearing a basket filled with delicious chocolates.  She complimented me on my appearance (“I can’t believe you look so good so soon after surgery!”) and immediately put me at ease about what lay ahead for me. She told me that as difficult as the treatments were to undergo, she had never felt so close to God; she sensed Him by her side at every moment, full of tenderness, assuring her of His great love for her and that He would never leave her or forsake her.  Her testimony was inspiring.

She went on to explain that for her, the most difficult aspect of the treatments was not the side effects, which she was able to manage in creative ways, but the feeling of claustrophobia that occurs while inside the machine.  She described how before treatments can begin a tight-fitting mask must be made of the patient’s head – and she showed me hers, which she had brought along.  She explained that the mask is made by stretching over the face and head a thin layer of moldable plastic, which is perforated so to allow for breathing.  This sheet of plastic is then fitted tightly around the head and attached to the pallet upon which the patient is laying.  The patient must remain motionless for fifteen minutes while the mask hardens around his or her face and head – and eyes must remain closed and mouth shut.

Once the mask had fully hardened around the face, it is ready for use in securing the patient to the pallet for every treatment.  In radiation therapy, pinpointing the exact spot to be radiated is essential so that cancer cells are destroyed, but not too much of the surrounding healthy tissue.  Therefore, when treating a patient with a head or neck cancer, measures must be taken – such as making sure the patient’s head is immobile – in order to ensure that eyes, ears, spinal cord or brain are not needlessly exposed to radiation. Continue reading

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