Light in the Valley of the Shadow of Death (part nine)

to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us… (Ephesians 3:20)

In the days which followed the one on which I was diagnosed with cancer of the parotid gland I tried to gather whatever information I could about the disease. Each time I received an additional piece of information I would then have to come to terms with how I felt about it. When the news was positive, as it was when I received word about my MRI, I had no difficulty sensing the Lord’s hand upon me, healing and protecting me. But when the news was not positive, especially what I was reading online about this particular cancer, I would have to pray through my fears and doubts and try to reconcile the information with my belief that God could heal me. In the months that followed, I got used to the fact that upsetting news would shake my faith, initially, but that in time, the Lord would help me find my way back to trusting in Him, no matter what I had been told. But it would take a while before I was able to recognize this pattern and become somewhat comfortable with it.

The weekend before my appointment with the specialist at the UNC Cancer Hospital in Chapel Hill I grew more anxious. I tried to Continue reading

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Light in the Valley of the Shadow of Death (part eight)

Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own… (1 Corinthians 6:19)

Initially, Gil and I spoke to very few people about the cancerous tumor in my right parotid gland, which was discovered in mid-November of 2011. Since we were still in shock and not certain what kind of cancer it was – or if it was anywhere else in my body – we decided to keep this shocking and upsetting report to ourselves, for the most part, until we had more accurate information to offer. However, when my friend Mary called Continue reading

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Light in the Valley of the Shadow of Death (part seven)

I will sing the Lord’s praise, for he has been good to me. (Psalm 13:6)

It wasn't quite this bad...

It wasn’t quite this bad…

Out of the corner of my eye I saw the water dripping, ever so slowly, from the kitchen ceiling.  As I looked more closely, I noticed that some droplets had dribbled onto the blinds which covered a large picture window.  Our kitchen table, at which I was sitting, faced that window.  It was about nine o’clock in the morning and I had come downstairs to sit and try and collect my thoughts.  But suddenly it dawns on me that the master bathroom is located directly above the area in the kitchen where I am sitting – and I had just taken a shower.  “This can’t be good,” I said to myself.

But that leak was not going to make it onto my list of things to attend to that day – or any day for the foreseeable future – because I had just been given the news, less than eighteen hours before, that I had cancer.  It turned out that the infection in the salivary gland near my right ear, was not an infection after all.  It was a deadly tumor of unknown origin and I had no way of knowing, on that morning, Continue reading

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